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11 things I have to say to eleven different people:
                          2012 edition
1. #1 gurl crush. Baby boo I luv you. Choo de one fur m3. Okay enough with the gangsta loving. You're the world's most beautiful woman I know. And I'm not talking about the fact that you look like a sexier version of Natalie Portman, I'm talking the greatest friend I've ever had. Not once have you ever left my side. Even when I moved 120 miles away, I felt like you were right next to me. You're a sister God gave to me. Please know that you truly are the sunshine of my life. I love you with all my soul.( and I mean all my soul ;) ) You're so picky and it makes me happy. You don't ever do things you don't think are worth your time. It's something not a lot of people have and I'm grateful for that example you set for me. 

2.  You hurt my sister and for that, I don't forgive you. I hope one day you find that people are souls not toys and you don't get to get sick of them and that you take care of them and love them and work through things with them. I don't why you always run but I hope you find someone who makes you stay. I will always love you but I don't like you very much right now. And this isn't my fault and I'm not sorry. 



3.Hello, you are the weird human being I've ever encountered. Seriously you scare the hell out of me. You've literally drugged me before. Yet, the deep scary thoughts and parts of myself I can share with you. You understand the heart better than anyone I know yet claim to be heartless. Thank you for being every great and strange in the world. Thank you for letting me cry and lie on your floor with your giant stuffed tiger while I spill my world out to you. Thanks for playing Zelda with me on Sundays. Love you boo.

4. Oh Hey. so I'm secretly not so secretly excited you're home this semester. I felt like we were far away from each other for the last year and a half and now I see more than once a month and it makes me so happy. You have one of the best attitudes on Earth. No matter what kind of a day it is, at the end of it, you have a good time. I'm so jealous of it. You help me have fun in everything. And your I don't give a fuh philosophy towards life helps me more than you know. I can't wait to be sixty with you and go to the From Under the Cork Tree Reunion tour with you. I love you and thanks for helping find my dreams.

5. You touch my ankles, get sweet and sour sauce on my toes, make me listen to Marliyn Manson, burp mustard by me, tease me when I've had literally one hour of sleep, etc. etc. Yet you listen to me. Not like "oh I'm sorry your day was bad" listen but observe and appreciate my life for something I never see it for? You've listened to me complain about CEU /everything and didn't judge me for anything I ever said. (just laughed hysterically)  There are so many things you've done for me and there is not any way I will ever be able  make it up to you or even properly thank you for. Ciara says we're soul mates and not in a romantic way because we would end up all American Beauty in the end , but I think what she means is we're just meant to sit on park benches late at night and talk about nothing. Because I know no matter where life takes us, I know we'll have off brand gatorade, Chinese buffet, the realization anything and everything is better than Sessions and last but not least we'll have the movies. 

6. Move home from Idaho and go to the U. and I love you.and I can't wait to see you this October. I wish I could see you everyday because there is no one who I feel myself with than when I'm with you. 
It breaks my heart when people hurt you and I'm sorry if I come off as overprotective or crazy. Please go to grad school in SLC and we can take lots of drives around.

7.  Thanks for moving back from Chicago. Thank you for making care about the world we live in and showing me that a one voice and one person always can make a difference. Thank you for being everything a person should be even when others around accept to be the same.

8.  You give me "panda" monium. Thank you for converting to the whole loving Teen wolf thing. You're the kind of person I can count on in any situation and know you won't judge me. You're truly the one person who knows every secret I have and I thank you for keeping them after all these years. I love you and know we're going to be friends forever. I also want you to know that I think you're brilliant I hope you never let anyone tell you otherwise. Whatever or wherever you choose to go with your life, I will support it 100%. 

9. Whatever you two are right now, know that I love you and will never forget your kindness. Even when I don't get to see you, I know that you're there and I can always count on that. #teamshyness forever. Never forget the beauty of your love.

10. I excepted you to be different from the rest, you weren't. It's my own fault holding you to a standard you can't be. Have a nice life. 

11. 67 days until I have you back. Stay good and know I'm thinking about you. Your love is endless and I hate that folks overlook it. love you.

11. I love how you think about everything way too much all at once. It shows how, sincere and brilliant you are. You're beautiful and deserve the best in this world. Thanks for this year and making me more carefree. I love you my big.

11. I'm happy we go to skool tog3ther. Hang out with me lots and let's talk shit on everyone we know. I'm wearing your awful plaid pants right now. Thanks for giving me a new perspective on the man-flop(not really..) but know I love you and am happy you're in my life.

11. Watch St. Elmo's with me? I love you and miss you green eyed beauty. We live too close not to spend time together. 




Ten summer memories :
2012 1. Swimming in Green River with my three best friends without a care in existence.

2011 2. Finding the job of my dreams and the one I needed after a year of hell.

2010 3. Buying Teenage Dream at midnight with Ahmer and Daniel and driving around all night.

2009 4. Squirrel Mountain

2008 5. Laughing 'til I fall over, being in "love" for the first time with a certain boy with swoopy hair who smelled like Showtime, and let's not forget the acoustic Bayside.

2007 6. My first Warped Tour 2007

2006 7. August 26th

2005 8.  That week I didn't go outside because I played Kingdom Hearts alone in my room.

2004 9. Girl's Camp and being in love with my brother's best friend. (cough cough Ben Whitney)

Nine things about myself

2. I have a potty mouth. I swear when I drive at EVERYONE and say every bad word in a Kanye West.And I realize that a lot of folks will lose respect for me or think I'm not classy but it's my sin I guess that it's mine to work on. 

3. I hate my natural hair color but i'm trying super hard to embrace it. but secretly all I want to do is dye is dark red. so it will probably end up dark red soon because that's what I want to do.

4. I left all my sadness of two years in Spanish Fork Canyon and try my best to let that sadness remain there. 

5. I love to paint and write but hardly ever give these two things time in my life. 

6. I have no confidence. I had a teacher who said that was a "loser way" of thinking and I would never succeed being mediocre. I will graduate college and prove this person wrong.

7. I'm not good at forgiving or forgetting. This makes life very difficult.

8. I love have favorite things. and people who don't have favorite things are usually void of personality in my mind. example:

color:blue One Direction member: Liam Payne food: snowcones thing to do: play my N64 or read Harry Potter movie: Ferris Bueller's Day Off poem: The Dark and Falling Summer book: My Antonia person: Mckenna Schwab canyon: Parley's Canyon

9. Nine is my favorite number



Eight ways to win my heart.

1. Be yourself. No really, there's nothing more to me than a guy who knows what he loves and why he loves it. Someone who doesn't feel any need to prove anything to me. Just needs to be him.

2. Laughter. 

3. understands Harry Potter references 

4. is into Star Wars.

5. Christ-like

6. Goes to the movies

7. Challenges my competitive side

8. Loves his family

Seven things that cross my mind a lot:

1.  "All alone! Whether you like it or not, Alone will something you'll be quite a lot. But on you will go though the weather be fowl though your enemies prowl."

2. I want to sleep. 

3. Damn hipsters.

4. Salt Lake is so beautiful I could cry.

5. "There's only one return. and ain't the return of the king it's Return of the Jedi"

6.This is not real life.

7. IT'S CALLED A SIGNALIGHT!!!"- driving on Highland Drive and people swerve between lanes.


Six people who mean a lot to me:

1. Lisa

2. Jim

3. Brian

4. Cameron

5. Kacee

6. Lilly

Five things I regret doing (or not doing) in my life:

"No Regrets. Just Love."-Katy Perry

Four things I'm wearing right now:

1.Jeff's Mormon pants
2. Olive green camisole
3.dirty red glasses
4. purple underwear


Three songs that I listen to often:
1.U Remind Me- Usher
2.Wildest Moments- Jessie Ware
3.Settle Down- No Doubt

Two things I want to do before I die:

1. See every National Park in the United States

2. Find myself.

One confession:

I'm going to be an art teacher when I grow up.