-it's a very large campus. Yet unlike CEU, I run into every person I never wanted to see after high school. Even that one girl who says tells me in the most condescending voice "Ohhh you're going to be a teacher? Yeah that's probably good for you.I'm going to into some science field you wouldn't understand" (yep I'm not heartless beezie like you and people enjoy my company and I'm nice so yes I would be a good teacher. and yes I exaggerate and twist people's words because I'm oversensitive)
-People are smart and really competitive. Which for how their tuition is, they should be. So sometimes in my classes (Especially my Lit class) I feel like a guppy swimming in a sea pretentious sharks who have all read every classic novel in the "cannon" that I never found time because I was busy reading good ole' Percy Jackson. I'm scared to share my opinion because I still feel like "regular" kid and not an "AP" kid. at what point do I grow out of my insecurities?
- I'm terrible at making friends on purpose I think. Most of my friends all live in Salt Lake and I'm sick of losing my friends thing for a minute. Which will be addressed in my 3rd annual 11:11 post in a few weeks here.. But I'm content with who I'm friends with so I'm not really trying. I don't know when that feeling will go away..
-I adore my Education teacher. She reminds me of every good teacher I've ever had and exactly why I want to go into this field of work.
-I'm deciding between three majors so any input is being taken:
- English major with a history minor in Second Education. I love English and can't minor in Art and I'm good at History and like it too. But I hate critically picking apart things just to pick them apart and half the time I don't a damn about the author's intention (or I feel I'm not smart enough to get it so I pretend I don't care.) It takes the fun out of reading for me. I believe in reading to listen to someone's story in an emotional or sympathetic way and taking that into my life. I feel like I don't make any sense? oii my life.
- Art major with a English minor in Second Education. This one time I got an art scholarship to a school in the middle of no where and drew plastic fruit too much and it kinda made me hate art for a second. But now I crave it. I just want to be in a studio drawing for three hours everyday. But I'm insecure about my art. I don't like displaying it and if I do, it takes a good portion of courage. I don't feel this way with words but art is different to me.
- Elementary Education major. Elementary ed would be perfect in an ideal world where they are a million teachers jobs but reality is, they job market is flooded with these kind of teachers. Also, I'm afraid that Elementary School will bring up parts of childhood we all have that I would like to forget. And I fear I would kill a parent if I knew they would abusive to their child in anyway. Plus I feel awkward around children sometimes. I'm the youngest in my family so I never truly know how to act around people younger than 12.
All I know is I want to teach. I've known that since I was seven and made my friends do worksheets and I knew would be a teacher. Since no one will pay me to watch movies, eat Le Puente and read all day this is a good option for me.
- I kinda really want to move out. (which doesn't involve the U personally but I stuck it in there because it's on my mind...)
-Dances and activities are free. I don't have to pay additional money to go to a school dance with a legit DJ and free slushies.It's a beautiful thing.
so there you have it. my life so far this semester. Again I have lots of things to share so expect more soon!
