Monday, January 27, 2014

2013: a year in songs

2013

1. Ride- Lana Del Rey

The first time I heard this song, I was standing in Tadd's kitchen doing the dishes. The lyrics caught my attention. This was the first time I though something was wrong with me. "I'm tired of feeling like I'm F***ing crazy" struck a chord. I was worn down to the core in January. This song captured my feeling of wanderlust and my desire for a rest.

2.Who Done That To You?- John Legend

Django Unchained. amazing movie. amazing soundtrack. My second favorite Tarantino after Kill Bill. This song helped me smile and get through my winter blues.

3. Bellas Regionals: The Sign / Eternal Flame / Turn the Beat Around- Pitch Perfect Cast

I LOVE Ace of Base. When this came on in the movie, I died. This song is cute and funny just like Pitch Perfect.

4.Popular Song - Mika feat. Priscilla Renae

I love the message of this song. Being mean is wrong and we are beautiful being who we are. ( yep that is my Hallmark lesson for the day)

5. The Future- Patrick Wolf- I envision a foggy San Fransciso street when I hear this. It reminds me of the Bay City and Patrick has a dreamy voice.

6.Just Give Me a Reason- P!nk feat. that one guy from FUN.
Best pop duo easily for 2013. I overplayed this to my heart's content.

7. Thrift Shop- Macklemore and Ryan Lewis
In the April of 2013, I discovered The Heist. It's flawless in every way.

8.Blurred Lines- Robin Thicke
I know, I know this song is terribly wrong. You have to know Jeff Smart, be in Orlando Florida, and play this at 12 times a day before the magic of this song becomes real. YOU DA HOTTEST WITCH IN THIS PLACE. Don't worry I hate myself too.

9.Thin Line (feat. Buffalo Madonna)- Macklemore and Ryan Lewis
This song captures every feeling I have about emotional intimacy with others.

10. Teen Idle- Marina and the Diamonds
How I felt in high school  feeling like crap all the time until senior year.

11.Diane Young- Vampire Weekend
Dancing with  McKenna while she texted Trey and her being a giddy school girl over her future boyfriend.

12. Drinking Shampain- Marina and the Diamonds
This song is me ignoring my anxiety and not sleeping watching Mad Men until 5 am.

13. Handle Me With Care- Jenny Lewis With The Watson Twins
On July 13, 2013 I saw Jenny Lewis and Ben Gibbard as The Postal Service visited. I felt for the third time in my life. I found this album at the library a week later and it was fate.

14.Black Skinhead- Kanye West
Kanye you may be crazy but this song top played song on my iphone.

15.Annie's Song- John Denver
Beauty is riding a train through Spanish Fork Canyon listening to John Denver watching the sunrise.

16.TWO WEEKS- GRIZZLY BEAR
The sound of Catan at the Smarts.

17. Blew My Mind- Dresses
This cute band opened for Kate Nash and this song is just sunshine

18.Wrecking Ball- Miley Cyrus
I love this song. It is passionate and will be iconic in ten years. I'm #teammiley.

19. Anxious Endeavors- Problem Daughter
This one time, a band gave me a shout out during their concert and I died. I almost didn't go to the concert that night because I had a bad day. I didn't feel like talking about it but that moment made my whole week. "I LEFT MY HEART IN UTAH <333"

20. By the Grace of God- Katy Perry
 I learned I had anxiety disorder with depressive symptoms in October. I felt damaged, broken and sad admitting this to myself. It's scary realizing it's not just a phase. Like many other times in my life, I found solace in pop music. Katy Perry helped me deal with my broken spirit. Her vulnerable album Prism strengthened my will and helped me finish my school out for the semester and go to work.

21.Let's Go Crazy- Prince
Thanks to karaoke, I'm learning to sing through my sadness. "And if the elevator tries to break you Go Crazy!" The Karaoke Cafe Staff, Berlin and Katey are my favorite version of therapy.

22. Unconditionally- Katy Perry
This song is not just about loving someone else, but loving exactly who you are in this moment.

23. Do You Want to Know a Secret?- The Beatles
Sweet little song I never heard until December. I love that I discover new things by The Beatles every year. I also listened to a lot of Paul McCartney in 2013.

24. Winter Song-Sara Bareilles & Ingrid Michaelson
" I still believe in summer days"




twenty fourteen

feeling alive. 

breathing in the smog and the sunshine 

creating creating creating 

all the ideas all at once 

making scary choices involving Florida, my hair color and money

falling in love with art and life all at once

I've never just been fine with exactly who I am and it's liberating

Lexapro is the shit

There are sad days too but I'm not alone 

I have a journal, the movies, and a God who loves me 

"this is the life I choose this is the thing I can't bear to loose"

I am more than a disorder, a religion, a body type, a liar, a passive, a singer, a friend

I am a soul full of love.