So here it is 2014 in songs
January
Blue(feat. Blue Ivy)
Beyonce
"But when I look in your eyes, I feel alive."
It was last Christmas season I first heard this beauty. I pulled out of the Smith's parking lot on 45th south and it was a revelation. My heart filled with peace and all the world melted away. I think how my life hasn't slowed down once in the last year and how this song calmed me. It also made me dream of being a mom someday and feel so hopeful about having a family.
Gravity
Sara Baraeilles
"I still feel you here until the moment I'm gone"
I know this song is a few years old but the Karaoke Cafe got it and I heard it a billion times this year. This song is brilliant. We all have had that relationship with someone that pulls us down and holds us back. I had to let go of a lot of people and things this year for the better and this song helped me cope with that feeling of being stuck.
February
All of Me
John Legend
"You're my downfall, you're my muse"
I have no deep emotional connection to this, only that I melt like butter when the harmonies come in the second chorus.
Brothers on a Hotel Bed
Death Cab For Cutie
"You may tire of me as our December sun is setting because I am not who I used to be"
This song is me changing and growing, and being rejected by those I thought loved me no matter what. This is the sound of my heart being broken by people who grew conditional to who I am.
March
Adia
Sarah McLachlan
"Show you all the beauty you possess if you would only let believe"
March was really good for me. I felt I could do things and go places. I found out I was going to Florida and my therapist and I discussed how strong she thought I was being and school was going and I was making new friends. I started singing this song at the cafe and it sounded pretty when I sang it, This song is so hopeful and reminds us we are never to far gone and everything isn't our fault in life.
March was really good for me. I felt I could do things and go places. I found out I was going to Florida and my therapist and I discussed how strong she thought I was being and school was going and I was making new friends. I started singing this song at the cafe and it sounded pretty when I sang it, This song is so hopeful and reminds us we are never to far gone and everything isn't our fault in life.
Forever
Haim
"Get out get out of my memory"
I hear a loud table of Catan at The Smart residence. I see Court and Theo fighting over "Developy's" and myself getting handsy with the bank.
April
Magic
Coldplay
"Still I call it magic such a precious truth."
This is Coldplay sounding like the Coldplay I love. Chris Martin <333 I heard this on Saturday Night Live and I started to cry because no matter how bad something or someone turns out to be in retrospect, we can look back and see that we have that memory of perfection in our mind. Someone finally put into words how hard it is to just let something pass away.
May
Hiding My Hiding Heart
Adele
I Can't Make You Love Me
Adele
These two Adele covers I always listen right after another. Hiding My Heart by Brandi Carlisle originally is so sad and sweet.And do I need to even mention how great I Can't Make You love Me is? May was the point I realized my parents weren't going to make it. They had been crying wolf in this case divorce for a a year and a half now, but they had stopped fighting. My house became almost unbearable to live in because I could feel the sadness of my dad and restless spirit of Lisa.
June
Now Or Never
Kendrick Lamar
"That's why I do the best I can because I know how blessed I am"
Imagine a rainy sunday afternoon, a greasy burrito, sweat pants and a chubby girl in sweatpants rap/singing to Kendrick Lamar alone in the Rancherito's parking lot.
Photograph
Ed Sheeran
This song sounded like Kristina and a song that would have been her Myspace song and on a CD in her car in high school and made me miss the hell out of her.
July
Wild Horses
The Sundays
Lisa moved out. Everyone kept checking on me. No one tells you how weird it is to move your mom to her own apartment. I literally don't know what I would have done with out Jeff and Berlin and Emily. I didn't and haven't seen my therapist since March and I didn't want to talk about it. Once again my friends saved me. Berlin wouldn't make me talk about it because he hates feelings too same with Jeff. I don't how many nights I spent at his house until 4 am because I didn't want to go home. And I know he was tired and bitched a lot but he and Berlin and Emily would just watch trashy tv and play Catan. and Emily would just bring me into a whirlwind about her life and bring sweet Brad with her and I could forget my misery for a while.
okay sorry now I'm crying I miss my friends and it's hard leaving them in Utah.
This song is the song Buffy dances to Angel with at her senior prom. The Rolling Stone's version is pretty too, but I love this one.
Fancy
I-G-G-Y
"TRASH THE HOTEL! LET'S GET DRUNK ON THE MINI BAR"
August
Well after I went crazy in Disney World and I went to Kentucky and Brian cheered me up with good ole fashion Nikki
Anaconda-
Nicki Minjai
MY BIG FAT A********SSSSSS
Bang Bang
Jessie J
This year was a revolution in female pop music. This song is all the proof you need. It makes me nolstalgic for the days of Lady Marmalade and "freak dancing" in fifth grade. (I can only imagine what that looks like, Shiloh how were you friends with me???)
September
Slippery Slopes
Jenny Lewis
I don't think I could handle coming home to SLC without Jenny Lewis. This song helped me to feel peace and ignore that nagging I failed feeling.
Break Free
Ariana Grande
This sounds like taking Lilly to school and singing with her. Kacee and Cameron had helping me take her to school and it was wonderful having something to do, Having purpose and spending time with pure red headed sass every weekday made life a lot better.
October
Shady Love
Scissor Sisters
one last trip to GR and to China Buffet.
Everybody Wants to Rule the World
Lucius
do yourself a favor and go listen to Lucius and look at the adorable matching outfits. music credit to Jeffi3
November
Angel of Small Death and the Codiene Scene
Hozier
Once upon a time this sex god performed on SNL and I fell in love with his body and liberal open minded views
Smother
Daughter
If someone bottled up the fog and cold and the muted pallet of November and sadness in the world and put it in a song it would be this one, and it would sound glorious.
December
Jealous Remix with Tanashe
Nick Jonas
Liv and Jeff dancing drunk at the Smart kitchen table <3
Dream Song
Nathan Reich
This is the sound of the final drive in 2014 around the valley feeling vacant in a way that you about to fill yourself up with a new place and life. This song is saying goodbye
so goodbye 2014 and thanks for making me move out of Utah I guess..
This song sounded like Kristina and a song that would have been her Myspace song and on a CD in her car in high school and made me miss the hell out of her.
July
Wild Horses
The Sundays
Lisa moved out. Everyone kept checking on me. No one tells you how weird it is to move your mom to her own apartment. I literally don't know what I would have done with out Jeff and Berlin and Emily. I didn't and haven't seen my therapist since March and I didn't want to talk about it. Once again my friends saved me. Berlin wouldn't make me talk about it because he hates feelings too same with Jeff. I don't how many nights I spent at his house until 4 am because I didn't want to go home. And I know he was tired and bitched a lot but he and Berlin and Emily would just watch trashy tv and play Catan. and Emily would just bring me into a whirlwind about her life and bring sweet Brad with her and I could forget my misery for a while.
okay sorry now I'm crying I miss my friends and it's hard leaving them in Utah.
This song is the song Buffy dances to Angel with at her senior prom. The Rolling Stone's version is pretty too, but I love this one.
Fancy
I-G-G-Y
"TRASH THE HOTEL! LET'S GET DRUNK ON THE MINI BAR"
August
Well after I went crazy in Disney World and I went to Kentucky and Brian cheered me up with good ole fashion Nikki
Anaconda-
Nicki Minjai
MY BIG FAT A********SSSSSS
Bang Bang
Jessie J
This year was a revolution in female pop music. This song is all the proof you need. It makes me nolstalgic for the days of Lady Marmalade and "freak dancing" in fifth grade. (I can only imagine what that looks like, Shiloh how were you friends with me???)
September
Slippery Slopes
Jenny Lewis
I don't think I could handle coming home to SLC without Jenny Lewis. This song helped me to feel peace and ignore that nagging I failed feeling.
Break Free
Ariana Grande
This sounds like taking Lilly to school and singing with her. Kacee and Cameron had helping me take her to school and it was wonderful having something to do, Having purpose and spending time with pure red headed sass every weekday made life a lot better.
October
Shady Love
Scissor Sisters
one last trip to GR and to China Buffet.
Everybody Wants to Rule the World
Lucius
do yourself a favor and go listen to Lucius and look at the adorable matching outfits. music credit to Jeffi3
November
Angel of Small Death and the Codiene Scene
Hozier
Once upon a time this sex god performed on SNL and I fell in love with his body and liberal open minded views
Smother
Daughter
If someone bottled up the fog and cold and the muted pallet of November and sadness in the world and put it in a song it would be this one, and it would sound glorious.
December
Jealous Remix with Tanashe
Nick Jonas
Liv and Jeff dancing drunk at the Smart kitchen table <3
Dream Song
Nathan Reich
This is the sound of the final drive in 2014 around the valley feeling vacant in a way that you about to fill yourself up with a new place and life. This song is saying goodbye
so goodbye 2014 and thanks for making me move out of Utah I guess..
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