Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you


Friends, family and my cat.

Day 25 - A picture of your day.


Today was changing my attitude and realizing you have to take life for what it is. It turned out for the better. Mckenna I'm falling in love with the Stones.

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change.


The Jazz's record this season.

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.

I gain a new book every year. Here's the last ten years of  my life:

2001:

Ramona the Brave by: Beverly Cleary

     "Ramona slid out of her seat. Her chest felt tighter. Her head told her to keep her hands to her self, her hands did not obey. They seized Susan's owl. They crushed her owl with the sound of crackling paper. Susan gasped. Ramona twisted the owl as hard as she could until it was nothing but an old paper bag with scribbled with crayon. Without meaning to, Ramona had done a terrible thing."

This was the first chapter book I ever read on my own. It sums up everything I felt when I was a kid. Ramona was out of place a lot but she was turned out to be herself in the end. I learned at a young age to be exactly who you are despite who you are around.

2002:

A Series of Unfortunate Events: The Wide Window by: Lemony Snicket

"If you are allergic to a thing, it is best not to put that thing in your mouth, particularly if the thing is cats."

2003:

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire by: J.K. Rowling

"Remember Cedric. Remember, if the time should come when you have to make a choice between what is right and what is easy, remember what happened to a boy who was good, and kind, and brave, because he strayed across the path of Lord Voldemort. Remember Cedric Diggory." 

2004:

The Giver by: Lois Lowry

"Our people made that choice, the choice to go to Sameness. Before my time, before the previous time, back and back and back. We relinquished color when we relinquished sunshine and did away with difference. We gained control of many things. But we had to let go of others."

2005:

The Sisterhood of Traveling Pants by: Ann Brashares

"Maybe happiness didn't have to be about the big, sweeping circumstances, about having everything in your life in place. Maybe it was about stringing together a bunch of small pleasures. Wearing slippers and watching the Miss Universe contest. Eating a brownie with vanilla ice cream. Getting to level seven in Dragon Master and knowing there were twenty more levels to go.Maybe happiness was just a matter of the little upticks- the traffic signal that said "Walk" the second you go there- and downticks- the itch tag at the back of your collar- that happened to every person in the course of the day. Maybe everybody had the same allotted measure of happiness within each day.Maybe it didn't matter if you were a world-famous heartthrob or a painful geek. Maybe it didn't matter if your friend was possibly dying.Maybe you just got through it. Maybe that was all you could ask for."

2006:

Speak by: Laurie Halse Anderson

"THE FIRST TEN LIES THEY TELL YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL 

1. We are here to help you. 
2. You will have time to get to your class before the bell rings. 
3. The dress code will be enforced. 
4. No smoking is allowed on school grounds. 
5. Our football team will win the championship this year. 
6. We expect more of you here. 
7. Guidance counselors are always available to listen. 
8. Your schedule was created with you in mind. 
9. Your locker combination is private. 
10. These will be the years you look back on fondly. 

TEN MORE LIES THEY TELL YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL 

1. You will use algebra in your adult lives. 
2. Driving to school is a privilege that can be taken away. 
3. Students must stay on campus during lunch. 
4. The new text books will arrive any day now. 
5. Colleges care more about you than your SAT scores. 
6. We are enforcing the dress code. 
7. We will figure out how to turn off the heat soon. 
8. Our bus drivers are highly trained professionals. 
9. There is nothing wrong with summer school. 
10. We want to hear what you have to say." 

2007:

My Antonia by: Willa Cather

“There seemed to be nothing to see; no fences, no creeks or trees, no hills or fields. If there was a road, I could not make it out in the faint starlight. There was nothing but land: not a country at all, but the material out of which countries are made.”

2008:

Love, Stargirl by: Jerry Spinelli

"Live today. Not yesterday. Not tomorrow. Just today. Inhabit your moments. Don’t rent them out to tomorrow. Do you know what you’re doing when you spend a moment wondering how things are going to turn out with Perry? You’re cheating yourself out of today. Today is calling to you, trying to get your attention, but you’re stuck on tomorrow, and today trickles away like water down a drain. You wake up the next morning and that today you wasted is gone forever. It’s now yesterday. Some of those moments may have had wonderful things in store for you , but now you’ll never know." 

2009:

A Thousand Splendid Suns by: Khaled Hosseini

"Miriam wished for so much in those final moments. Yet as she closed her eyes, it was not regret any longer but a sensation of abundant peace that washed over her. She thought of her entry into this world, the harami child of a lowly villager, an unintended thing, a pitiable, regrettable accident. A weed. And yet she was leaving the world as a woman who had loved and been loved back. She was leaving it as a friend, a companion, a guardian. A mother. A person of consequence at last. No. It was not so bad, Miriam thought, that she should die this way. Not so bad. This was a legitimate end to a life of illegitimate belongings." 

2010:

The Princess Bride: William Goldman

"Don't you understand anything that's going on?
Buttercup shook her head.
Westley shook his too. "You never have been the brightest, I guess."
"Do you love me, Westley? Is that it?"
He couldn't believe it. "Do I love you? My God, if your love were a grain of sand, mine would be a universe of beaches! If your love were -"
"I don't understand that first one yet," Buttercup interrupted. She was starting to get very excited now. 

"Let me get this straight. Are you saying my love is a grain of sand and yours is this other thing? Images confuse me so - is this universal business of yours bigger than my sand? Help me, Westley. I have the feeling we're on the verge of something just terribly important."

"I've been saying it so long to you, you just wouldn't listen. Every time you said 'Farm Boy do this' you thought I was answering 'As you wish' but that's only because you were hearing wrong. 'I love you' was what it was, but you never heard."

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.


I want to get better at my painting. :)

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget.


This was in fact the worst year of my life. It would be nice to forget this awful, awkward time of life.

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you’d love to travel.

Austria in the summertime 

Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little.

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.

I'm constantly seeking social interaction because I feel when I'm alone, I'm weak or unloved. 

I'm behind a few days so bear with me.
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.


I have written more in the last two months than I have written in the last three years.  I'm still trying to work out a lot of kinks in my voice but I'm writing and it makes a world of difference. I used to write for attention or just so someone could read my story. Now I write for life's sake. 

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.

John Hughes 

If it weren't for Ferris Bueller's Day of Off or Breakfast Club, I don't think life would be as bearable. These movies were after my time but John Hughes captured youth and stringed it out into something closer to reality and less like fiction. He inspires me to not only find happiness out of young life and that youth isn't the end but the beginning.

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.


I want to sail a boat :)

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.

McKenna Schwab has been a constant friend from the beginning. She is kind, funny,and so much more than she thinks she is. I'm so grateful that she is a part of my life and only a few people stay in your life forever. I know Kenna is one of them. Love you sister~

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist.


Regina Spektor 


Small Town Moon 
I must have left a thousand times
But every day begin the same
Cause there's a small town in my mind
How can leave without hurting every one who made me?
How can leave without hurting every one who made me?

Oh baby, baby it's all about the moon
I wish you wouldn't have broke my camera
Cause we're gonna get real old
Real soon

Today we're younger than we ever gonna be
Today we're younger than we ever gonna be
Today we're younger than we ever gonna be

Stop! Stop, what's the hurry?
Come on baby, don't you worry worry
Everybody not so nice nice
Everybody not so nice nice
Stop! Stop, what's the hurry?
Come on baby, don't you worry worry
Everybody not so nice nice
Everybody not so nice nice

Thought you ought to know by now
I thought you ought to know by now
Everybody not so nice nice
Everybody not so nice nice

Oh baby, baby, baby it's all about the moon

I must have left a thousand times
But there's a small town in my mind
How can I leave without hurting every one who made me?
How can I leave without hurting every one who made me? 
How can I leave without hurting every one who made me?
How can I leave without hurting every one who made me?
How can I leave without hurting every one who made me?
How can I leave without hurting every one who made me?

Day 12 - A picture of something you love.

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate
Public Display of Affection, you're not cute 

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most messed up things with.


Celine Dion, Henefer Utah, all nighters, Squirrel Mt., demons, etc. etc. 

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.


The last few months have been the most difficult I've ever had in my life if I didn't have my beesteeboyz there to make me laugh and listen it would be unbearable. I love you all with all I have in me and each of you brings something very unique and wonderful to life. 

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh.


Not only am I the only one smiling, I'm wearing my cousin's hand me down sweater. This makes winter go by faster

Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item.

This sums up happiness and how to deal with the winter months.

love thy neighbor

It was Tuesday today and of course we all know what that means, it's an awful. I got told I was lazy and thats why my hair looks bad, my friends were weird, and that I'm so funny because I forget words when I write. For the record:

 

• I'm not lazy, I'm an insomniac and appreciate it if you and your perfect hair would be nicer to us who choose sleep over narcissism. 

• My friends are weird because they aren't stuck up and pompous like you. Honestly I would rather deal with someone quirks than another's cruelness.

• I'm more than funny, I'm hilarious and yes I skip words when I write but it's better to skip words than not to have any creativity flowing through my veins.

People kill me sometimes and I know I'm two faced as the rest of us but maybe if people had more kindness and acted less like my Jr. high choir class I would considered going to this place of education. Grow up.

Day 06 - A picture of a person you’d love to trade places with for a day.


I love Tina Fey. She makes me laugh and I think she's beautiful.I think she is genius and everything good about our generation can be summed up by her.

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory.

Memories are what you could call my forte. I remember everything. So to say I have a favorite memory would be crazy. This picture was moment of true bliss for me in 2010.  My cousin Dano and I went for a drive of up our mountain. We call it Squirrel Mt. for the large abundance of squirrels. This mountain geographically speaking separates Bountiful and Farmington Utah. We drove to the top of the mountain up by a weather station and the winds were blowing wild. It was hot  September day. When we arrived to the peak though it was like the top of the mountain contained winter's wind. I stepped of the car and felt swept away by the winds. It was magic. I leaned the cliff that looked below on the Great Salt Lake to the west and it looked a foreign sea. I closed my eyes and let the wind just grab me. I had been hot and irritated, ungrateful for the warmth of an Indian summer and the wind felt cool on my skin. The ran through my tattered softball hoodie like a sail. I heard a snap behind and my cousin took this photo of me. This picture makes me happy and fills me with joy. I love wind and how it run through us. It suggests that nothing is immovable if we just keep trying to penetrate life's most difficult tasks. I turned to stone that month from going to a new place full of change that I didn't like.The wind weathered me that day and reminded me that it was time to grow and that life is moving always. My brother told me one night when I discouraged from life and school to not compromise my happiness. He is very far away from me now but I know without doubt that this is true. If you don't like something and you can change it, change it. Be the wind in your own life. Find a way to find happiness. I didn't say fun or make yourself happy but happiness. Otherwise you're going to be missing something forever.

Day 04 - A picture of your night.


Yes, I spent my Saturday  night watching Glee and painting. It was nice to chill and do what I love. The company wasn't too bad either. I saw my dear friend Berlin who I haven't seen since before the end of Winter break. It was good!

Album of the week

Transatlanticism by Death Cab For Cutie
The Atlantic was born today and I'll tell you how
The clouds above opened up and let it out

I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
When the water filled every hole
And thousands upon thousands made an ocean
Making islands where no island should go
Oh, no

Most people were overjoyed; they took to their boats
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat
The rhythm of my footsteps crossing flatlands to your door 
Have been silenced forevermore
The distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
It seems farther than ever before
Oh, no

I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer

I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer

So come on, come on
So come on, come on
So come on, come on
So come on, come on 


I never understood how people could how an Album that spoke to them or inspired them until I acquired this Album in the ninth grade. I recommend to all. 

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.

I hate to admit but I have lived my life throughout many T.V. casts these are probably the top three:


Pokemon- A lot of things happened growing up and Pokemon was always fun and just an escape.


Lost- This show ruined/changed/saved/ my life. Fate exists and I treat people differently that enter my life. 


Grey's Anatomy- I learned to cry and listen too much Death Cab for Cutie. Forever will be the best.

Brian

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with for the longest.

This is me and Brian Wilson.There's not a lot of pictures of us together but this is me in his ballin hat. I know we could be twins but he is two years older than me. He is my brother and my best friend. I miss talking to him everyday. He is in Lebanon, Kentucky serving a LDS mission. He's the coolest person I know. He loves you for exactly who you are and will tell you when to get over yourself. When I was seven   years old Pokemon hit my neighorhood like the plague. One night, I really wanted a Pikachu card and my brother traded his Mewtwo for it. This sounds super strange but it was unconditional love. He was made fun of it for years but I carry a Pikachu pokemon card in my wallet. Miss yeahh bro. 

15

I tried this on Tumblr and it didn't work. So I'm going to write about myself on here 
Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts.

1. The Utah Jazz are like an awkward child to me. We don't have a lot in common they disappoint sometimes and some days I don't understand them, and at the end of the day I love them unconditionally. I always believe that they will win.


2. I love to express myself through art and writing but I'm not like other art majors who have abstract ideas of love and hate or whatever. I mainly like to paint landscapes and cats. I write about the great days with my friends and family.


3. I have never been in love but I think it's beautiful. I love to see people who look like they belong together put together. The Jim and Pam's that make our world go round. I can't for the day I meet my Jim. I will not sit around and whine about not having him in my life. The women of my generation were taught that a sparkling vampire with perfect features falls for an anti-social grosky girl who has an awful attitude about life. I say know what you want and go for it. I don't know what I want so I'm going to search not wait for it to find me.


4. My friend group has a strange unnatural bond. We all are very different and I  honestly thought the whole sisterhood of traveling pants bond was a myth. It's not.  They're family and keep me in perspective and make me feel good about myself. I have no idea who I would be without them. I would do anything for them. 


5.I suffer from  strange superstition in my mind. If my day is going wrong it's because I took the last of the mosserella sticks from the grille. When I wake up on Tuesday mornings, I brace myself for the worst day of the week. I don't trust people with blue eyes as much as people with brown eyes. I do better in classes when I sit in the left or right column never the middle. I'm a little crazy.


6.I love learning unconventional things. 


7. I hate watching the news. I watched it this week and it hurt my soul. 


8. I know all 150 of the original Pokemon. I play my Gameboy every summer and pretty awesome at Pokemon Stadium. I'm not ashamed of any of the following.


9. Snow-cones are my favorite food. I prefer one half tiger's blood and one half blue raspberry.


10.  I'm Mormon and believe Jesus Christ is my Savior. 


11. Because of four months of 2010 where I watched the complete series of Lost, I believe in fate.


12. I live for summer and detest snow. As soon as I'm financially ready I hope to live somewhere warm.


13. I hoard music instead if cats.


14. George Harrison is my favorite Beatle.


15.I've collected paint samples since the age of five. I have no idea why I do this but I have a box full of them.